Tuesday, January 27, 2009

More of the usual

Lately I've felt as emotional as my middle schooler. If you read my last post before I took it down, you know the kind of mood I've been in.

Don't worry, it was just whining about my deficencies when it comes to my calling.

I'm not different today but I've got a grip on life.

Here's what's on my mind today. How is it that very good friends can sometimes, upon reconnecting, find out that they really have nothing in common now?

This has happened a few times now and it leaves me feeling depressed.

I wonder if they feel that way about me? Maybe they think, Oh my gosh, she's married? She has children? She didn't travel / get a PhD / become an activist / get drunk / watch Top Chef last night? Ugh, I thought we were friends.

Who knows.

Tomorrow I promise, promise I will be peppy. I have something cool to show you, so hold on to your hats until the morning.

6 comments:

Tracey said...

After my girls weekend I really felt that way. It's so weird how you think you know someone, but you really don't. One of my best friends in the whole world has turned out to be so materialistic and everything is all about money. She actually told me that she pays her son $500. for straight A's on his report card. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I think we have all been there and now have to be thankful for the new friends we make and have more in common with.

Tell Tyce he did a beautiful job today singing at the basketball game. I got it on video. I got the back of him, but it was still beautiful.

A real henderson housewife said...

Hi I found your blog through Tina's. Hope you don't mind. I'm sad we don't see each other that much but I've always enjoyed our time hanging out. Did you know I'm moving to the other side of the world? I mean country? Now that is depressing.

Laura H said...

Hi, I found your blog through Merridee. Your blog is great.
I read your blog through Google Reader and I can still see and read your last post (Confessions). I can see you deleted it from your blog but its still out there???

Rebecca and Co. said...

Laura, that is strange that you can read it on google reader. Or maybe it's like they say, be careful what you put out there because it stays on the web forever. LOL

Gretchen, I commented on your blog--I can't believe you're moving so far away! I enjoyed being your VT companion in the NP ward.

Tracey, you know what I'm talking about. Except these people I'm reconnecting weren't my absolute BFFs like yours was.

Aranne and Dan said...

Hang in there... And by the way, everyone deserves to have days where they aren't "peppy". Sorry you are going through this but I think it might be for a reason even if you can't see it right now. You are a great person and they are the ones missing out!

jessenpetty said...

Rachel, I am so sorry! I have felt the same way but have come to the conclusion that if you can't celebrate your differences, than that particular friend was probably only interested/comfortable with certain people. I find that the I have better conversations with people who are different than I am. But, it helps when your a REALLY nosey person! Ha HA!! Your Awesome! Miss you tons!