Thursday, September 12, 2013

This is Harder Than I Thought It Would Be

I thought I could homeschool, substitute teach, AND volunteer in the twins' classrooms without any problem. That's in addition to sorting out a calling I barely understand but is busy on a grand scale all the time. I get to conduct regional meetings I've never been to and orchestrate the most elaborate dance of the year (New Years Eve) with the help of the nine other stakes in the valley. I am good with young people one on one. Am I good with large committees of adults? Time will tell.

Anyway, I feel like a teenager trying to juggle all the demands of high school again.

Bryce and I have just finished choosing our curricula for Mary (he's in charge of Math and World Geography; I'm in charge of the rest). That was a soul-sucking experience. I lost nearly a week of my life pouring over options, comparing prices, reading reviews, and judging content. It would have been so much easier to do or Connections Academy but I didn't want a school district person breathing down my neck, counting the hours that Mary sat at the computer or whatever. This way we are autonomous but the down side of that is doing it all ourselves. It is quite the obligation and responsibility! And I won't lie, kind of expensive.

However, it is worth it to have her so engaged in the learning process. I wouldn't do it if she didn't need it, and it is very validating to see her happy.

I don't know how I can substitute right now but I've got to find a way to make some money. Maybe I can make it work, after I get the rhythm down of homeschooling.

Oh, and our laptop broke (as in, got dropped). We need to get it repaired. We bought a new desktop computer but we haven't bought a word processing program yet and I have an agenda to type for Sunday. Seriously! Ugh, the timing!

I just got over being horribly ill and am so glad to be on the mend. That virus was a killer.

I am kind of a downer today, eh? Sorry about that. Want to know something good? Tomorrow I'm going to make a huge batch of homemade marinara sauce with all of the tomatoes we've been given lately. So grateful for the gift from Bryce's Uncle Steve and from our friend Michele. We are in tomato paradise. Steve also gave us two giant zucchinis so Mary and I are going to try out some muffin and cake recipes.

That's about all for now. Bryce is making dinner tonight again so I don't go crazy and overdo it, which is super nice. He's the best and even though we have our parallel stresses, he's always there for me.


Silver Strands said...

It's stinky that just when you need extra energy the most, you get sick. I don't live your life, but from the outside looking in, I'd bet my house (I know, not worth much right now) that within a couple of weeks it's all routine and you'll wonder why it felt so overwhelming. I'm interested to read posts throughout the school year about your homeschooling adventure ... maybe you should put that on a bucket list really quickly, and pretend it was a bucket list that you created 10 years ago "homeschool at least one of my children". You'll feel so accomplished! hugs to you.

Jenn said...

I know how overwhelming everything can get. One thing I have learned is that the money will come in when you need it the most. It seems like it is always at the eleventh hour but it does come through. Things will settle down soon.

Rebecca and Co. said...

I literally LOL'd at adding homeschooling to my bucket list! I'm definitely the kind who writes "get out of bed" on my to-do list just to cross it off. Good idea. :)

Rebecca and Co. said...

Thanks, girl. Sometimes it is hard to see the forest through the trees. Things always do settle down and work out somehow!